When your intelligence is free from obsessions of sensational thrills then your workoholic push and pulls are less. You become considerate , you rise above normal ruts.
You are searching for integrated life but have no clue of it . This is a stage where the Hindu scriptures suggest you to go on holy pilgrimage .
The purpose of making holy pilgrimage is to be charged with the higher vibrations of a sacred place founded by various highly empowered enlightened saints and sages and holy women. To find such a true wise man who can understand your inner conditionings and able to guide you into higher stages of evolution of consciousness.
If you forget your goal and waste your time in gossiping around with smokers , tea-toddlers , useless persons or just rearing dogs and cats you are the most unfortunate person .
Your time is valuable . Whatever little money you have you worked hard to earn it in your country.
Before your visa , money and mood runs out you need to accomplish your goal. For that you must organize your trip.
Visit and stay in Varanasi , Haridwar , Rishikesh , Badrinath , Kedarnath , Gangotri and 7 others for Yoga , Meditation and learning Vedanta.
Visit Ayodhya , Vrindaban , kuruksetra , Vindhyachal , Tarapeeth , Kamakhya and 51 others for Yoga of Love and devotion -bhakti.
Visit hundreds of other places for mystery and suspense .
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